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Hello my dears,

today I feel not so good. Some things have reminded me of what a life I have. Yeah, the hole day I’m thinking of my life. I remember, how terrible my life is. Can you imagine the feeling of not being loved or not be able to accept love. I feel so useless... so empty and burned out. I really don’t know how to think about these feelings, don’t know how to live with those special things, that are absent. It isn’t a life yet, but I WANT to live, but how? That’s the tormented question. It damages me and I don’t know, how to stand, how to stand in life and have self-esteem. What’s that, self-esteem? I havn’t any, okay, I little bit, but it doesn’t suffice. No self-confidence. It’s a circular course. You can’t go out of it, you aren’t able to escape.



I only could scream, only scream out all my fears and feelings.

Sorry

Your Krümelchen, who likes you very much and don’t know how to thank for everything

Diese Nachricht wurde am 29.04.2003 um 15:43 Uhr von Kruemelchen editiert.
Diese Nachricht wurde am 29.04.2003 um 15:44 Uhr von Kruemelchen editiert.

Hello my little angel!

It is very nice to read some english words from you...
*be proud of you*
Your kind of bringing your feelings nearer is wonderful and hard to believe...
I love reading such beautiful things, because they are written down,like I feel. But I'm not able to speak like you do...
My fears are getting out of control and my pains are going to kill my inside.
Ok, I don't know, what to write now, so I know someting, but it doesn't belong to this page...
Sorry...

hugs&kisses

Your choco.

*who likes you and needs you to live...*

Hey my little choco,

first, thanks for your lovely words. I’m glad, that there’s still a person being proud of me and belonging in me. It is a wonderful feeling to be understood. There are days, when I think life goes on straightly, but there are also days, and I must accent, most days, when I think life doesn’t seems to go on. Although I know: IT GOES ON! But, how I’ve said already, it’s like a circulation. One day you think so and the other day you have completely different feelings about the whole situation. The only thing I would like to have is a clear head. The chance to think about things more intented, but at this time it seems to be impossible, ‘cause there are so much things flooding through my brain and disturbing my thoughts, that I haven’t the possibilty. But I’m convinced, that it will change in time. In any case I hope.

Your Krümelchen, who is very glad to have you

*keep you in my arms*