Gegen - Missbrauch e.V.

The dreams in which I'm dying
Are the best I've ever had

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my silence is my selfdefence

Not looking at the fact that this is a text from a well known song ... do you really think so?

Dying in dreams often means that something new begins or you fear that something new might begin. Maybe something is breaking out, comes up from deep inside you.

Isn't it frightening? I always find it frightening. But I'm willing to learn about the meanings and try to work with it... try to move forward and make my way through the darkness.

Come on with me...

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Manche Wege entstehen, indem man sie geht.
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Yes sasa,

it is from a well known song, but yesterday i wished to die!
i have opened a door and the pain was very big.

i know that dying in dreams means that something new begins.

yes it is very frightening that something comes up from deep inside.

yesterday i spoke it out for the first time, but now i don't really know what i have said.



very bad english, but my german isn't really better today.

sad

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my silence is my selfdefence

I wanna know what happened... and I know the knowledge will cause so much pain. I can't tell if I'm prepared - who knows?? But that won't stop me from wanting to know.

I'm trying so hard to remember and nothing happens... I know that trying will not help - in the end it is not my conscience who decides whether I will know or not.

So, maybe it helps if you see it like that: Knowing means a further step... in the right direction. And you are closer to information you haven't had before... so go your way and you will learn to deal with it... it will take a while, but I think it is the right way for you to go. You are not standing still, even if it feels like it.

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Manche Wege entstehen, indem man sie geht.
Unsere Songs und CD findet Ihr auf http://www.mmitb.de
follow me on twitter: @Basement_Music

dear sasa,

yes, you say it, i wanna know it, and i wanna know it know.


sad
everything you have said, it is all in my head

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my silence is my selfdefence

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A new beginning,
a new chapter of my life
started the day,
when i thought it could be my last
my eyes were wide shut but i,
hadn't given up
just thought i'd be walking,
the world alone.

no emotions,
my whole body felt like ice
needed to feel,
that the sun would shine my way
my world had turned into dust
but i,
had my faith and trust
thought i'd be walking the world alone.

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Es war der Tag, an dem ich dachte, es sei mein letzter.
Ich schloss die Augen und glaubte, ich sei allein auf dieser Welt.
Ich schwor mir, nicht aufzugeben!

Wie in einem Eispanzer fest eingeschlossen,
vegetierte ich ohne Gefühl dahin.
Meine Welt versunken in einem trüben Dunst.
Doch tief in mir verborgen spürte ich die vage Hoffnung,
dass irgendwann Sonnenlicht diese Trostlosigkeit durchbrechen wird.

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Goodrem, Delta (Out of the blue)
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Always keep the blue side up!